i really can’t see myself in a relationship with anyone for many reasons. the biggest reason being i can find someone attractive, and picture what it would be like to be with them, but i just know once i have them, i would lose interest and be really unhappy. another reason being (not to get really fucking RETARDED or anything but…) i have really low self esteem although i don’t show it at all, and i would never feel good enough. if a gorgeous girl even walked by i would wanna hide in my shirt. lastly, in my own humble fuckinnn opinion i am just way too weird for anyone. i say weird things, i think weird things, i just don’t respond to anything like a normal girl would. i’m kinda alright with the thought that i’ll probably date no one through high school, but then again it makes me really unhappy because i don’t like feeling lonely, but no one does. i don’t really know how i’m gonna do this, but somehow i have to find composure with myself and ~love myself~.
ONE DAY, it’ll happen
